i am never the kind of person who likes to read long post full of words or would wanna spend half an hour sitting in front of my macbook typing out one. my tumblr has become more of a pictorial blog with my frequent updates of instagram. i then reminded myself the reason why i got this tumblr.

many things happened, obviously, and sometimes i just don’t feel like telling anyone about it, unless they managed to find this tumblr of mine.

so anyway, i’ve been trying to apply for a scholarship to go to london, college of fashion, for my BA degree course, fashion design. i’ve been accepted into the school and now it’s all up to whether if i could get a scholarship or not. reason being that i wasn’t born with a silver spoon and my family faces financial difficulties. so now i’m left with a few more procedures and i would be ready to submit the form and then i will get ready for the interviews.

and because there’s a small little tiny hope that i might leave singapore and go to london for my degree, i am afraid to date the ones that i like, not many, just a few. but would it be right? would it be right that i leave in september and that would it be fair for them if we had a relationship? or for me?

i’ve never liked long distance relationship. i’m the kinda guy who needs my partner to be at least in the same country as me. i do need my space but definitely not space of countries apart, space of 3 years apart.

things don’t just end here, their friends said, “you’re with glenn? be wary.”

it’s a weird feeling after hearing that. so why do people like to play fairy godmothers?

they would think that they know so much about me when most of them don’t even have a proper conversation with me. it’s probably halloween for them every single day. maybe tomorrow they would be gypsies, witches, fortune tellers, feng shui masters, jesus, buddha, or my mother.

this kinda situation happens at work too, or with my friends. some of my friends thought that they know me far too well and kindly helped me to portray me, while i’m not there, with the use of words, verbally, to others who don’t really know me. as much as one would say, “i will see/hear for myself”, that one would still have the impression of what my dear friends had already told him and that bothers me because i did had a hard time being myself which appeared unbelievable to others.

i’ve tried to fit in and as usual, i am not, i’ll just have to move on. i still have friends that i know i can trust. i know that i can’t control what others has got to say about me but it shan’t bother me as well. i preach this since i was 17 after i broke up with my first ex and it was the shittiest relationship one could get so i guess i’m good.

we all know how things are easily said than done. we all know how things are easily done if you’re rich. but there are some people who likes to show off and get a reaction of me but i usually show otherwise. people like this make me wanna work harder more. and i always tell my friends,

“if i’m born rich, i might not be who i am now, i might not even be your best friend.”

and they would smile which make me happy.

on a side note, i wanna thank mayble, julius and eddie for the wonderful steamboat dinner specially arranged for my birthday. there’s no proof of the dinner because we were too hungry.

i wanna thank mayble and julius for this pair of kicks!

i wanna thank melvin for another pair of kicks.

mainly because they do not know what to get me so i hinted them together and they were not too expensive and i wouldn’t feel bad. LOL.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

-peace-